I am really what the papers labelled as unconcerned youths when it comes to politics. I guess the reason is that the country has been prospering and progressing in the last 10 years. If you asked me where I want to live in 10 years ago, I want to stay here. I want to stay in this country because it is really where I call home. I really don’t care much because I was way too young and completely satisfied with leaving the country run by capable men and women.

Not so much now. I do watch rallies and I do feel the rage for this year’s election. I start to care about politics. I guess when problems start to punch me in the face, I start to care. I really really hate how the country is run right now.

Transportation woes. – Lots of train disruptions in the recent years. Companies making a fortune out of the disruption? Shouldn’t they be ashame of causing inconvenience instead of of making opportunities out of everything. Bus drivers chose to take detours to avoid jams and got lost? (I appreciate the intention but if you can’t manage then don’t) I really pity the passengers who has a driver that don’t listen. Tuna packed cabins all the time regardless of peak or non peak hours. Now tell me why the increased transportation since they are able to stuff more people in same small space. Is this what transportation is in the first world country?

Rising cost of living – Over-promising and under-delivering. Prices are increasing why not paychecks?

Overpopulation. – This is a serious problem. Come on. Truth be told we really are small. You can’t possibly kept shipping people over here. The supply demand curve is seriously messed up. Don’t you notice the long queues everywhere? Shopping is a pain. The worst thing I’m feeling is that I feel like a minority living in my own country. I seriously want to see those data (so much for the transparency). How do you call a place home when you’re surrounded by strangers, hearing languages that you don’t even understand? Outcasts, aliens, culture shock in my “own” country.

Results – Over-competitiveness. Thousands of people competing for that few pathetic spots? You can count the number of universities with your fingers. You won’t need your toes for the next 20 years too. Education should be our priority. Places should be given to our people and funds to our people. That is what will make the youths stay.  Perhaps an analogy will be good. Inviting your neighbour’s kids over for lunch is short term. They will soon go away because they have a home.  Feed your own kids before you spent on others.

I don’t want to go on because I’m so pissed off. I will emigrate if I got the chance. Move away and start a new life. In any case, I will still be an alien.

I been praying to god. How hard I find it to love the people around me. Clean my soul from all the angst, anger, unhappiness, disappointment, jealousy in me. “Break my heart for what break yours”

Seeing how people are so thrilled by the lecturers coming to school next semester I find it funny. Are they overreacting or am I nonchanlent? I learn more from my friends than from the professors. I learn more on my own. It is just a hub to generate assignments and deadline. That’s it. Shall not rant. Might be feeling different next time. Peace out.

My friends have been commenting that my positivity makes them wanna puke which is kinda of true because too much positivity can be a little cloying. Let me get real.

Shit happens. Facing all these shitty problems. Why do I have to be the one to care so much? Why do I have to face all the bozos? Why can’t life be simpler. The new foundation asked a legitimate question that made me question myself. WTF. Am I really doing the right thing? Why do I care how people looked at me? (Thank god not many people know of this blog.)

Why do I have to do all the shit that you say? Why can’t I quit school? Why can’t the world end sooner?

Sometimes being surrounded by people makes me feel more lonely than ever. I think I’m slowly dying inside and have a bad case of hallucination. Like the Lascaux cave painting speculation. I can paint you a picture of hell and darkness that will eat you up and consume your soul.

I seriously feel like swearing now because I’m so upset with myself for being so inept. Comparison can be deadly and I died a hundred times inside. I’m seriously swaying. Don’t break me.

On my birthday they gave me such wonderful news. How thoughtful. You leave me flabbergasted. Let the chips fall where they may… Yeah. In fact, I got over it in 5 sec. Let’s face it, it is not the best for me anyway.

Abundance, abundance, abundance!

Though so much happened recently, I felt kinda of relieve. I’m really glad we sat down to have a chat to clear our misunderstandings. I’m so glad there’s still a bunch of people who cared for me and were so patient with me. I will work harder! Thick skinned people go further in life! Keep the money rolling in so I can move out of the darn house.

Joshua 1:5 No man will be able to stand before you all the days of your life. Just as I have been with Moses, I will be with you; I will not fail you or forsake you.